Tuhjse Naaraaz Nahin Zindaggiii...Tere Massoom Sawaalon Pe Hairaan Hoon???

I had never imagined I would be standing at these crossroads of life ever...
On one hand I am so confused and on the other I have never been this optimistic...
On one hand all my questions have been answered. On the other a whole new set of quandaries await me.
On one hand I am happy I am safe. On the other hand I feel like jumping off a cliff...
On one hand I feel that all this should have never happened. On the other I feel that what would have life been without all this?
On one hand I have grown big...But at the cost of the child like innocence I once had...
I have come to understand situations and people a lot better but on the other hand I think I can read too much...

I feel at times to turn back time and write a new story...On the other hand I feel that my life already is already the best story...

I feel blessed..I guess I truly am ...But I just question I hope this is not my loss!
I feel happy...I feel sad...I feel like crying...I feel like laughing till it aches...
I wanna care but I am scared to be hurt...
I was hurt but I continue to care...

I am unable to guess what is on?
What is coming along?

Only these questions come and haunt me? What is it gonna be?
Couldn't life be simpler than this? Fewer questions and all the answers...
Why do things happen the way they do...
Why is the question that confronts me...
I am waiting for my enlightenment...
Have grown up remarkably recently...
Will tell u when I find all my answers...
Take Care and Keep Rocking Till Then...
Keep Living and Keep Laughing...

Spurious Living Something Is Seriously Wrong!!!

5 1/2 feet from head to toe, maybe 36 inches in diameter;
Almost like a speck on the face of this earth.
Can't be spotted from a distance of less than hald a kilometer maybe even lesser.
Will appear to be an ant from a height of 100 feet.
Shouldn't take a truck or a bus to crush it in more than a minute and remove any sign of it's existence from the face of this earth.

That is the weight attached to a human being or the preponderance of this body on the face of this earth.
And look at the complicated lives we live. The onslaught of constant emotions that range in our minds.The strength of the turbulence that hits the walls of our existence and shakes us all the time from the inside. The lurching unhappiness, the gnawing discontent that eats into the peace that once existed in there. That has completely debunked the happiness, the childlike innocence and the simplicity that once resided there...

The lingering jealousy; the ever growing spitefulness, the animosity that thrive like parasites on the insides of our minds.

The quarters of our minds,our souls and our existence is filled with discontent. We are unhappy to be alive. We question the very reason of our existence. We are wasting our lives disillusioned.
Seemingly squandering our time on the face of this earth in the pursuit of happiness.

Maybe because we have complicated our lives to an extent that we have forgotten the true reason of our existence.The meaning of a fruitful life evades us. We are running after a mirage of happiness; of a life of bliss. And like a mirage it takes deep pleasure in eluding us. We long for a place of far far away where we get true love, genuine care and a heart full of bliss. But I guess that exists only in our heads and is not real.
It is that little little fear that eats into our existence that hinders ue from truly living, from being truly happy.

Can't we just simplify our lives. Can't we shun the fear of dying. Of never being able to breathe again; of never being able to walk again. Of our life never being the same again.Why do we put so much stock in being alive that we forgive live?Why can't we put off facing troubles till the time they actually arrive.Why can't we be happy now and leave our trials and tribulations far far away...Why can't fly, flit, float...Be happy count our blessings...be happy to be alive...compassionate for the lesser blessed. be ready for a simple life with few needs and much contentment.

When we want something and we get it; we want something else and the process continues...Why do we think that getting something would solve our problems...that it would make us extremely happy.But since it is only our head ;it is not REAL...
Let me tell you we are so small that we can be killed in a moment and nobody would know.But it is that fear of our being killed that kills us each moment we are alive!Hahaha isn't that a funny thing to have happened?We suffer from our own delusions when the reasons of our happiness root from wants...
Let us be happy to be alive!Let us live our life when we ARE ALIVE!I just came face to face with my death(actually it was a delusion...)
Was stuck to a tree and hanging down...Thought my soul was about to leave my body..Didn't happen though...Came back to be writing this...

But now I think I am not soooo damn scared of everything now...I wish people would be less meaner,Life would be much simpler,Love would be more abundant!And I would be much happier...I already am though but let's c what life has in store as well.
I want to live my life.I don't just want to engage in frivolities and waste my life...I was to live it to the fullest!
God please be with me in my venture to be happy...To be alive and the realization of the deeper reasons of my existence and the deeper connotations of being really alive!

There has to be more to life than just filling your stomach, being materialistically blessed and foremost being mean and being unhappy!

Life HAS TO HAVE MORE TO IT!
I am on my quest to find this. Volunteers are welcome to join me...Let us mark this earth with proof that we once lived here...Let us leave foot prints...for others to know...

That even though we had a body of 51/2 feet and a girth of 36 inches we DID LIVE our life!And did something worthwhile while we were alive!Maybe I am destined to die the next moment but why not live right now...God please make me fearless...Let me lead my destiny...Let me be happy...Let me live...Thank you!!!

The Beauty Of It All -> "To Each His Own"

To Each His Own...


It has taken me a whole lot of time to come and realize that life is a concoction of highs,lows...Ups and downs...
That life is a lot about what you want out of life and where u wanna go is something u determine for yourself...
And it is important to live your life while you are alive...
'Coz there is no U-turn that u can take and come back and live it and do the things that u missed out on the first trip here...
Live ur life to the fullest..
U don't know when it is going to take u where u don't wanna go...

To each his own is the rule that runs here...
U r alone...
The sooner u accept this ; the sooner u will come to realize the beauty of this...
U r smart,rich,successful, u'll have people hovering around like makkhis...
But is u r sad, lonely, hungry I am quite sure u'll be alone, absolutely alone...
At the end of the day it is a wild world!
It cares no nothing for any body...

Life on the fast track is all running, running and running...
People are bad, selfish, believe in the rule of "Use and throw"
People will do anything to further their own personal interests.
They will go to any length.

But then where is the problem?
U can make the best of your time on this earth alone...
'Coz u r chartered to die one day...
Why not live while u r alive...
Neways u r gonna die one day...
Then y not fly...dream...soar...
Feel the wind in your wings...
Rise high and shine...

Take care sweetheart...
Life is not a packet to squander away...
It is the most precious gift from God ...
To use , to live, to be happy...

So Surabhi...let go of everything that hurts u...that haunts u...
Live your life to the fullest...

Life is a constant struggle...
U need to keep moving...
Keep living...
Keep working to put things in order...

Finding the answers to the biggest questions is simpler than I first thought it would be...
Hahahaha
Am amused by the whole Idea now...
I hope the amusement outshines the fear and trepidation...
Till Then...
BByyeee and ciao...

Finding the Answers To the Bigger Questions of Life?

Had always know that "life is beautiful". Grew up dancing to the tunes of "Ace OF Base's" "It's a Beautiful Life" . Life has been great till date. even now...
But suddenly find myself in a whirlpool of emotions...
A wild frenzy of feeling that are hard to cope with, to comprehend...To resolve...
Faced with the BIGGEST questions in life???
More than the answers I see only the Question Marks staring me in the eye!!!
Where from here?
What to do?
What is my poison?What is my passion? What is my destiny? What do I do?
And the biggest of them all!!! Who is it gonna be???
Phew...quite a few to deal with I must say...
My chhotu dimaag is now all bombarded with ...

And now I hear "Bulla kii jaana" ...So true...
Who am I ?
What is my mission on this earth?
What Am I doing ? Why Am I doing it? Where will I go from here?
Bulla Kii Janna main Kaun?

Still life is good...
Am living it!
To find out what's in store...
And finally...
Belive me "Life IS Beautiful"
No doubts about that!
Shorttime dilemma...Shall let u know when I find my answers...